I may be the only person in the whole wide world who remembers how special this day is, or was supposed to be. It's been 17 years since this was to be the happiest day of my life. And it's still bittersweet for that reason. Today reminds me of the plans I had for her. I remember hoping she would be late even to be born on her Daddy's birthday, although that would have been 10, TEN days overdue. What in the world was I thinking with that one! However now, the thought of keeping her with me for all that extra time and being able to bring her home would have been soooo worth it.
I know she's with me on days like today. Especially on days like today. I miss her a little more than normal and she knows. I don't mind that nobody remembers this day, not even Daddy. It's like our special today for just the two of us. We have a bond that I will never have with my son. She is my first-born, she is my daughter, she is my saint. She guides me through my days and lays with me at night. She is always with me.
Happy 17th due date day to my sweet Bailey Noel. Love you!
