When you least expect it...BAM!

It doesn't seem to matter where you are in your grief journey, when you least expect it that little something comes along to make you burst into tears. Early on, just seeing Bailey's name would send me down but as the years went on, I took that as a sign from her that she's there. Her little reminder to me. It makes me smile to see their names now, to here them in other's conversations, or read about someone with the same name. But every now and again, there's something that just strikes a chord at the wrong time and WHAMMO! Late last night I was staying up with the hubby trying to catch up on some DVR stuff. We sat down to watch Dancing With The Stars. Ok, you know fun stuff right?! No heavy dramatics just a bunch of people trying to learn dances and most of the time some good music too. Well last night Monday night was story telling night. Everyone had to think of an important year in their life, a time when there was change, or heartache, or inspiration. I knew it was going to be an emotional show right then but I wasn't prepared for one of the dancers to talk about having to deliver her twins early due to pulmonary edema. Oh then came the pictures of her very tiny preemie daughter that brought back so many memories of my little NICU girl. Happily her little girl survived as did her twin and they are very healthy almost 4yr olds. Happy endings are great, I didn't get that.

Oddly, the 31 Days Challenge is very closely related, ha!! I just went to look at today's prompt and found
Day 5: Do you ever get subtle reminders of your angels and if so what are they?
Like I said before, hearing, or seeing, or reading their names always brightens my days now. Also, little butterflies and little dragonflies make me smile as I picture my babies riding along on the the wings whispering Hello Mommy as they buzz by my head. When I'm being creative, I often feel them sitting on my shoulder as my muse giving me inspiration and guiding me. Sometimes, it's just a little thought that pops in my head seeming to come from nowhere. Angel whispers are wonderful things.