It's getting a little closer

I have really been trying to keep busy this week. Yesterday and today {probably the rest of the week} I've been working on a little project. It's seeming to be a little tough but that's how things are when you don't know what you're doing. LOL Trying to teach myself a new skill and just getting a little frustrated I'm not picking it up faster. I'll get it though, I know I will. It's important to me so I'll make it happen.

From today until the end of next week I will be 'counting down the days'.

Sixteen years ago today...Travis was out of town on business like he was every week. I jumped on the scale and checked my weight, I was obsessed. Not because I was thin and scared to gain too much weight or I was heavy and scared for the same reason but because I was gaining weight at an alarming rate and would get on the scale several times a day to check it. Let's face it, I was overweight when I had Bailey but the gaining weight never bothered me. My frame of mind was centered on eating healthy and making sure the baby grew like she was supposed to. I was not over-indulging on sweets and that stuff. I did not want to get GD and I knew that could be an issue since I already carried more weight when I got pregnant. But soon enough at my Dr appts I was getting the lecture on how much weight I should gain and how I shouldn't gain too much because I was already overweight. One appt in particular I was told that when my hubby and I went to Wendy's, I should get the salad bar and let my hubby get the burger and fries. REALLY! I left that place in tears. She didn't care what I was telling her, She assumed from looking at me that I was making bad choices. Oh, and yes, Wendy's did use to have a salad bar. So back to the 26th, I had gained more weight and was so upset. I called the Drs office and tried to get in to see someone. Of course the Drs were all booked up but I could come in the next morning to see the Nurse Practitioner if I really thought I needed to. Well, YES, that's why I'm calling you!! Cont' on the 27th.

Day 25: On birthdays, diagnosis days and angelversaries, how do you handle them?
I do my best to keep calm and let the day happen. Sometimes I make plans so I know I'll have to get out of the house and plans that I know will keep me busy so that my mind doesn't have time to settle into a dark place. I try to make them all celebrations of life now and not focus on the bad. Sometimes harder than others, especially Bailey's week. But in the end, it is all about life, the life of my sweet children.

Day 26: On a scale of 1 to 10, rate your day today and why.
Well today I think I'm at about a 7. It's not a bad day and I have a lot on my plate so that is helping.