Day 18 and an update

Ok, update first. The package got to my friend in Virginia yesterday. She says she can't wait for her little one to "wear them out" in the next two weeks. That makes my heart happy. I still miss them a little bit, only because I can't go into the next room and pull them out whenever I feel the need. Truth be told, they made me a little sad doing that. So really this is a win-win!! Sometimes, no matter how much it hurts, you have to make that leap, do what your heart knows is right so that you can move forward and make progress in your grief. Yes, I still do that.

Day 18: Have you found something that puts you at peace?
Quite possibly TIME has done that. After years of begging, wishing, praying, hoping things could be different, a peace comes over you. You realize nothing is going to change, nothing is going to bring your baby back to your arms and so peace takes over where bitterness used to live. Doing those little things to move forward brings a peace in itself. I believe in God! I believe in a God that scoops little children and babies up in His arms and holds them for me until I can get there. The best babysitter in the whole wide world...and beyond. His love for me and my children and the promise of eternity gives me a peace that really nothing else can touch.

Once you find peace, even a little bit of it, a weight is lifted. You see a light that has not been there in a long long time. There will still be dark times and bad days but the peace in your heart helps you to move past those times more quickly. Don't rush your journey, follow the grief path, but please strive for peace. Don't settle for heartache; find the light, find the peace.