CYG2012 Day 3: After Loss

I debated on which picture to post for this day's challenge. So much of the AFTER is about anger, sadness, pain, etc. I wanted to show a different side. This is the face of someone that knows more pain than anyone should ever have to know. It's not the face of the happy-go-lucky 19 year old she used to be but the face of a 42 year old that can still muster a smile.

Here is my submission for Day 3 and what I wrote as a caption.

Day 3: After loss
I was undecided as to what kind of picture to post for day 3. I have years and years of "after" since my losses span 20 years but I felt it was more important to show a picture of me now, present time, in which I'm at peace with my three losses. That doesn't mean I don't have my days (or months like October lol) but my heart is settled knowing that each day is one day closer to seeing them again and I have joy and hope in my life. I know that may seem strange or way too far off for some of you but it can happen, it just takes time, it's a process. Don't be hard on yourself and trust your journey.