Today it is July. Tomorrow it will be August.
My losses all occurred in October, November, and December. It makes the last of the year pretty difficult and even unbearable at times. The first of the year brings much more than a new beginning it brings an official end to my sorrow for at least a few more months.
But August! August and September mean going back to school, preparing with long lists of supplies and new clothes. I ALWAYS loved going back to school when I was a kid. I loved shopping for crayons and shoes, still do! But I can't help but reflect on where my family would be in this process had all of our children survived. This year, a college kid, a junior in high school, a 6th grader starting middle school, and a 1st grader. Wow, the supply lists would be endless and so varied but how much fun it would be shopping.
So it doesn't matter that today is Tuesday and tomorrow is Wednesday cause in my mind, today is Summer and tomorrow is Back to School.
I hope that August and September are a fun and nourishing season to prepare you for those hard last couple of months! I'm not looking forward to November, either...our first since she died. Big hugs, friend. xoxo
ReplyDeleteThanks Beth, I hope so too! We have birthdays coming up so that always helps. HUGS the first is always the hardest and the one with the most anticipation.
DeleteBIG ((hugs)) Stephanie. I found your blog through Bereaved mommies link up. I look forward to reading more of your blog.
ReplyDeleteWelcome welcome!! and I just liked your pretty FB page too.
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