October....already!?

I can not believe October is just a couple of days away. I have to say that Fall has always been my favorite season. I can't explain it really but when I see all that orange and green and black and purple, oh and the reds and yellows too, it just makes me happy inside. I guess the way sunshine affects peoples moods so does Fall for me. October with Halloween has always been a favorite. When I was pregnant with Bailey I would think that she would be about 7mos old when Halloween rolled around and I could not wait to dress her up. Sadly she was born the day before Halloween that same year and there would be no playing dress up for us.

I'm preparing myself for October. I have decided that since my blogging has been almost scarce lately I would devote time everyday in the month of October to blog about my feelings, what the day has brought and how I am coping through this tough month. September was particularly hard for me this year and I'm not sure why. Maybe a combo of things going on medically and my brain telling my heart that it's almost time. As hard as I try, I can't help but relive moments that happened so long ago and I find myself counting down the days to Bailey's birth with anxiety.